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01 June 2015 @ 08:12 pm
I don't know what to do. My poor husband hasn't seen his father in about 7 years. He spoke to him today on the phone and when he got off it was easy to see he was depressed. He said "My father is going to die and I'll end up living my life full of regret." It broke my heart. I'm at a loss to help him. I've suggested he go and we use the credit card, I've told him to look for a job in the States, I've even said we should try and get him here, but nothing. We live week to week, we can't even afford to buy a house, we rent. We have three kids and hubby has a son to another woman who he pays child support to. His father is scared of flying, so getting him to sit on a plane for 14 hours isn't going to work. I feel a lot of guilt. If it wasn't for me he would never have stayed in NZ. Life can be so unfair sometimes.
26 May 2015 @ 02:05 pm
I'm not even going to talk about how long it's been since I posted. It's just been WAY too long.

I'm at work by myself today and I was pottering around getting stuff done when I suddenly thought about LJ. I remember a time that I used to check LJ at work, but I haven't done that for a while. So I started going through some old posts and realised that I miss you guys. So I'm doing a little (enormous) update :-)

A lot has happened in my live in the past year. It's been insane. My husband had lost his job but because of this he applied for another job, which I'm happy to say he got. He's happier than I've seen him in ages. He loves his job, he works with amazing people, he's home every night by 5.30 at the latest and he's quit smoking!! It's fantastic!! As difficult as the months where we've come out on top. He's not getting paid as much, but the job isn't back breaking like his last one, and to be honest money, though extremely helpful, isn't always the most important thing. And with this job he's more likely to get regular pay rises.

My kids just won't stop growing, my oldest daughter is now 14 and taller than me O_o. She loves standing beside me now! She's in her second year at high school and so far so good. She has a goal at the end of high school and is quite determined to reach it so she's working very hard at school. She's had a boy that she likes and he likes her, but she has told him that she's too young for a boyfriend right now and wants to wait till she's 16! Proud mummy moment right there! And to be honest a huge Phew! I am aware that we may not get to 16 though. She really is a beautiful girl, who really doesn't care if she acts the fool. Boys are ever present *sigh*

My other daughter is 12 and isn't interested in boys (thankfully) She would rather dance and play field hockey. She's also doing very well at school. (I'd like to say it's me, but their father is really bright, not that I'd tell him that Lol)

My little boy will be 5 in July! He's off to school soon and is the funniest, craziest kid around. He pulls the silliest faces just to get us laughing.

As for me, I'm still in the same job, for now. We were told about a month ago that we're closing down in the next 12-18 months. It's sad, I've been here for 8 years now and enjoy what I do. But with hubby's new job there is a potential to move down south and live in my home town again. So I guess this will work out ok. I'm still running after the kids. My 14 year old does netball and crossfit, by 12 year old does ballet, musical theatre and hockey, and my boy does rugby. So busy as always, but happy about it :-)

My only complaint at the moment is now that winter is setting in all our favourite shows are ending! Supernatural, Sheild, Arrow, The Flash have all finished. Person of Interest is still going here and Blacklist. Hubby and I love these two a lot. We've been catching up on Outlander as well. Love this show but it's weird how they split the first season up.

Ok, that's my boring update. If you have read the whole mundane post please reward yourself with a cookie. You deserve it :-) I'd be really keen to hear from anyone *puppy dog eyes* :-*
Current Mood: happyhappy
04 May 2014 @ 01:11 am
There aren't many on my flist who still check in that would appreciate this. But I had to post this photo because it made my insides quiver and wibble about in a very pleasant way. I give you Mark Ryan, I think probably pre RoS days, but certainly looking like sex on toast.......pretty please ;-)

Current Mood: dirtydirty
30 April 2014 @ 10:49 pm
My 13 year old daughter has already learnt the terrible joy of the angst. She's been reading the Mortal Instruments series and she's been emotional about it, even crying. I'm not sure if I'm proud or concerned. :-)
28 February 2014 @ 10:51 pm
Hi *waves sheepishly* I have no idea as to how to start this post. It's been months since I've been around. Lets just say that the last 5 months have quite possibly been the worst in my life. It's a long story full of self pity and I really don't want to start anything here. Not this time anyway. Besides, if I start I may never stop....
First I'd like to say sorry for the birthdays I've missed. I did think of you on your days and I did think about posting, but RL is a bitch right now. I'm really sorry and I hope you had fantastic days full of everything you wanted :-)
Right now I need a break from RL so I've come up with something to make me happy. I would like to discuss Hot Guys! Yes, I would like anyone who happens to come across this post (I'm really not sure who's around anymore) to post the names of 2 Hot Guys and discuss who is hotter and why. There are no rules as to who you are comparing, except they must be famous. I'm not going to compare the hot neighbour and the dude you work with LOL. I will, of course, be adding my 2 cents into the convo, and perhaps a healthy debate will ensue. Pictures aren't necessary, but would be appreciated ;-) They can be from the same show (Sam and Dean anyone?) or from completely different genres.
So, please, help me forget my daily life for a moment and let me dream.
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
26 October 2013 @ 09:14 am
There is a very slight, tiny shred of light that might save us. It means a massive pay cut but at least it might get us through Christmas. The meeting hubby had was based on how the company is losing money and how they need to save it. It doesn't make sense to get rid of hubby since he's the most experienced and knowledgeable person on staff. We're pretty sure this is a personal thing, but if it's not then the proposal hubby is putting forth should be accepted. If not, then we might take further action. We're talking a small company here. There's the boss, hubby and a couple of other people. Hubby has been working for this guy since the start 8 years ago. We've moved to two different cities because of it. This isn't a faceless corporation, these people know us. They know our family, they know we need money. Who does this at this time of year??? *shakes head*
Current Mood: distresseddistressed
21 October 2013 @ 09:03 pm
So, hubby got a letter handed to him from his boss today. He's to attend a meeting in two days with some HR lady to discuss his position in the company. There is a possibility that his job might be "dis-established" O_o yep, looks like hubby might be losing his job. I can't explain just how devastating this is. We have no saving as we only get enough money to live week to week. I feel sick to my stomach and hubby is distraught. How are we supposed to get through this? What the hell am I going to do?I just....I don't know
Current Mood: scaredscared
17 October 2013 @ 05:16 pm
Every week my oldest daughter has a homework page called Kiwi Kwiz. It's based on worldly items, sometimes stuff that's been on the news, sometimes it's random things like 'What's the most popular website in NZ'. It gives you four answers and you have to circle on. This week there are two questions that she's gotten wrong and I wonder, 'where the hell did I go wrong?' First question "In 1999, people thought the Millennium bug would....?" The four possible answers? a) eat all the world's corn b) cause every computer to crash c) bring deadly disease from Mars d) turn young people into zombies. My daughter circled c. O_o And then there is the next question. Who defeated Obi-Wan Kenobi in a lightsaber duel? a)Darth Maul b)Lord Voldemort c) Gandalf the Grey d) Darth Vader.....she left it blank coz she didn't know the answer *head desk*
07 October 2013 @ 09:00 pm
I don't usually do this.....ok, I don't mean ranting, coz I do that a lot :-P I mean talk about politics, but this post is going to be a little political. Please feel free to correct me if I'm wrong, and tell me off if you like. There is a chance I may offend, but I'm happy to hear any comments, just don't call me names, that's getting personal and it isn't necessary. In saying that, I'm pretty sure I know my flist well enough that there won't be any name calling *hugs to all, just in case*
This is a little late and my feelings have since subsided a little over the weekend. I just about got into a big fight with hubby over this. For those of you that don't know or forgot, hubby is an American. A Republician American O_o yes, somehow I managed to marry not only a Republician, but also one of the few Americans that don't believe in Valentines (Imagine my disappointment on our first Valenines Day....) Anyway, we got into a conversation (after a couple drinks, not a good idea I should add) about the government shutdown in the States. I expressed how disgusted and pissed off I was that this could happen. I know it doesn't affect me personally, but this sort of behaviour always gets me fired up. I couldn't believe that just because a few rich assholes couldn't/wouldn't reach an agreement some hardworking Americans weren't going to get paid!! How is this right? How the hell could this happen? He tried to explain to me about the "Constitution" and the "Declaration of Indepence" and all that, and he defended it to the hilt! He said that that's the way a proper democracy works and that's how the forefathers intended it to work, so one party or person can't put themselves above anyone else. My response; "That was over two hundred years ago!! This isn't right and maybe there needs to be a change!" When I said how unfair it was that the rich assholes were still getting paid he told me it was because they were "Necessary" O_o Tell that to the poor bastards who are living paypacket to paypacket! If that happened to us we would be completely screwed! Of course, it's Obama's fault!!! Anyway, I'd like to say we reached an agreement, but it was more an agreement that we're never going to agree so we'll never talk about it any more :-/ Since then of course, the American government have agreed to backpay the 800 thousand that are currently not getting paid. It's something, but still, it's not going to help while they're in it. How bout the rich assholes use their pay to help the 800 thousand. Now that's more of a solution!
Ok, political rant over. I was going to say something about the horrible things happening in Syria, but I think the Shutdown is enough for now.
In much better and completely awesome news, only a day a bit to go for Supernatural season 9!!!!
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
03 October 2013 @ 08:05 am
Only six days to go! I haven't been this excited since season five ended.